The plan.

妈，我不要回了。

Simple as that.

Whatever comes next? Improvise.

Walao!!! Failed driving test. Felt like crying when the teacher wrote "GAGAL" on my result sheet. AARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Everything seemed fine at first but somehow i damn unlucky. The person before me parked the car on the slope! GG! I started to get nervous and as soon as i got the car moving, the engine died... @.@ The teacher kept quiet and i became even "gan jiong". I tried to restart the engine... but i couldn't. Tried a few times before the teacher reluctanty told me that i have yet to free the gear =.=" At last, i managed to start driving the car, reached a juntion, stopped, looked around, no car and moved less than 10 metres. Then no more. Finished. OMG!!! The woman told me to stop and failed me. Reason? I didn't use the hand break to stop at the junction. I was like: what the hell? what's ur problem? Why would you need to use the hand break just to stop at the junction? Its not even written under the requirements list. Felt really bad after that but stil went to the second part of the test: parking and moving up/down hill. I did well for that part and passed but felt even sian cause no point. Overall still failed.

Now that i thought of the whole thing again, I realize should be very easy de. Haihss, always the same problem lo... nervous then everything "luan diao". Hmm, will be doing it again on december holidays. Heve tot be really really ultra uberly prepared for it.

Good luck to all those madders running for mad exco!!! You all can do it. Show the seniors what u guys and girls are made of and that u all will lead MAD into a bright future. Really wish i could be there to root on all of you. Section heads please don't forget you choreos, I want to watch when school restarts :D Everyone jia you and do ur best. Even if u are not chosen, that does not mean u are not good. U still possess that special n unique characteristic of urs that is yet to be discovered!

Been having driving lessons these few days. I thought i would be something exciting, to be able to start driving at last. But now, i wished i don't have to do it. IT IS DAMN FREAKING DIFFICULT FOR ME. i wonder how long it took an average person to master driving. i can't coordinate mysef well enough and my reaction time is way to long. You have to stay focus to the road, watching for incoming cars around and whether ur car's moving straight. At the same time the legs and hands have to control the gear, speed and break. Can't we just take driving test for auto cars. it'll make life a lot simpler. Whats making the whole thing worse is the trainer. He told me i could go slow but then keeps on urging me to go faster n faster. Stop contradicting urself. its confusing me!!!

First time using an online journal. A bit don't know what to do due to my low intelligence in the IT field. However, i realize this is a very good place for me to voice out my inner thoughts since i don't feel comfortable talking about it to others. So here i am.

Hope it helps me to understand my friends better too when i read about what they write. JC life has really made me notice a lot of things and this is how i found out how an insensitive and selfish person I have been all my life. I never really cared about anyone around me. Its always my friends and families that are helping and protecting me during troubled times. I never did the same for them.

Its time for me to break through the mist and see the light. Being oblivious to things around me has caused me to become this hateful being today.

I must change!